Midterms are Not a Good Sign

Lucky me and I only have one midterm for the whole sem. CS Midterms. Last Friday, January 26, 2007, I took the midterms at the home base of CS majors, Faura. After taking the 2-hour long test, I felt that I was going to need to put a lot more effort to pass CS.

I was reflecting on how and why I found the test hard then it came to me.

1) I wasn't paying much attention to the lectures. No offense but I find our teacher a bit boring. I couldn't force myself to listen to him or his lectures.

2) I was tempted. Since we all have a one-to-one student-somputer ratio, I was surfing the internet more than listening to the lecture.

3) I hadn't really studied. The day before the test was a "play day" for me. I reminded myself to study but can't glue my butt on my chair to study the slides. I just scanned not study. ><

I should have listened to my teacher. I shouldn't have given into temptation. I should have studied.

Regrets. There's nothing I can really do about the past. It already happened. I'll just do better in the remaining days of the sem and in the finals. (and maybe hope that my score will be just fine?)

I want a twin!! >o<

Watching Ouran High School host club rekindled my want for a twin. (The anime have twin brothers as part of the lead group) I want to have an ideal twin. One who's caring, who's funny, who's game, who's concerned, etc.

Why do I want a twin?

I just want to have one. Really... I was thinking it might be fun to have somebody who looks like you. Somebody you'll always be with especially when going into new campuses. I won't worry about not having friends in school. I could pretend I'm her and vice versa. Yes.. it would be a lot of fun or so I hope.

As I thought it over, having a twin would also have its consequences. I'd probably be caught up in our own little world to the point that I wouldn't have many friends. There's also this fear of being compared. What if my twin is smarter? more outgoing? more sociable? better? I'd probably be hating my twin if that was the case, and my vision of having an ideal twin would be destroyed, eliminated, scratched.

Never thought I'd say this but it's better to be single. I don't need a twin to make my life happy and fun. I have friends, and it's better than being stuck in a small world only between twins.

(note: Chelo, I don't know your blog address... can you please add it to your comment so I can comment on your post. Thanks.)