I was never good...

I was never good at writing. I don't know why I even bother writing fan fictions in the first place. Maybe, this is also one of the reasons I have low-maintained blogs and one-paged journals. I assume that when God showered the talent of writing, I was fast asleep and wasn't able to be blessed with that gift.

Writing is one of my greatest frustrations in life, and it's one of those things that make me look down on myself. My writings are so simply plain, dull and boring. Nothing's new and there's no spice in it. Not even a pinch. I guess this reflects how "obedient" I am in following rules. Probably the reason I'm not appreciating my own writing is that I stick to the conventions. It's always the Subject-Verb-Predicate syntax for me ever since I-don't-know-when. I envy those who go out of the box, out of the conventions in writing. With a chain on my neck, I fear that once I break out of it [conventions] I would be a stray cat -- different, unnoticed and scared.

Being a stray seems... exciting. You're free to go anywhere, free to do anything. Am I... going to be a stray?

(ei.. sorry for the crappy last post for a blog report. Yes, I'm in the I-pity-myself-because-my-writing-sucks kin of moment. )